Ladies and Gents, ym daughter was born October 26th 2004 @ 4:15 PM.  She weighed 6 pounds and 9 ounces.  You know it's amazing that I am now a dad.  When i looked into her eyes I saw a little me.  I held her I wouldn't let her go.  She is the 4th generation in my family (alive).  This is a dream come true and words cna't describe this moment.

I am speechless for now.

Over the weekend Kristin broke ties with me because I wanted my mother to be apart of my daughter's life.  Kristin has beef with my mom over some things that were said but in the end words are words and we all know that the chance for a child to live a decent life has to override all petty emotion.  It's terrible knowing that someone out there actually hates you now.  Hate is a very strong word that is hard to take back.  I pray to God that things work out because I know that I did the right thing.  I can say that right now my life is in a cold period.  I haven't felt the same since Kristin ended what we had.  It's a shame that she threw away all that we had.  I am sticking by what I did though amd in the end we will see things work out.  This is a time that I am facing a form of adversity, and I am about to be tried very hard.  I want you all to pray for me on this one and hope that things go right.  My whole family has my back on this one, in my life I have fought for just about everything that I got, and this is another battle that I plan on putiting into the "W" column.

IM BOUT TO BOUNCE BACK

It's amazing.  Usually I would write on this thing daily when I first started but now I have been pretty busy.  Well I am in my 4th week of college in my senior and it's been crazy.  I have 4 English Classes this semester meaning that I have been writing my ass off.  Also, my girl is 8 MONTHS PREGNANT NOW !!!!!!!  It seems like only yesterday that it was a rainy day in March when she called to tell me that she was pregnant.  I am both nervous and excited.  I have been waiting for this moment for a long time.

I think that today I am going to write about the things going on with politics.  As you all know we have the whole John Kerry-Bush thing going on.  I myself am a registered independent, but there is no chance in hell that I am going to vote for Ralph Nader due to the fact that voting for a 3rd party candidate is a waste of a vote.  So I will be going with John Kerry on this one.  You know in my 21 years of life, I always thought about how great it would be to get into politics myself.  I can see it now LOL.  I dunno maybe someday, but of course first I have to finish college, get things right for the family and all, and maybe even learn more about things before I get into it.  I guess my motvation for running for an position would come from the feeling that somehow, someway, I can make a difference.  It's all in God's hands, and where he leads me that is where I will go.  I keep thinking of all of the different directions that things can go.  The future is up to me, and I am ready to embrace it.

Yea, I haven't posted here in about a week or so.  I decided that I should make my presence felt though.  I don't have much to talk about.  Thsi weekend I am hanging out with my boy Marcus as we are celebrating the finish of our re-release of the first album.  This means we are pulling out the Tiger Rose Red Wine and drinking the night away.  Then tomorrow I am taking my little sister Thomeesha to hit up a movie.  I am taking her and it's almost gonna be a tryout at that whole fatherhood thing.  Everything has been quiet on this side.  Kristin hasn't been too hormonal lately, I bought some new clothes to reinvent myself, and I am going back to college in about 2 weeks.  I can't wait to get back into the mood for classes, writing papers, and all the stuff that should be going down making this one crazy semester that I am having on my hands.  Lord willing, I can have a great semester if I make sure to manage the time the way that I am supposed to.  I love fall time here in Pittsburgh, and also it's teh beginning of both College and NFL football seasons.  I am a huge fan of them both, and there is nothing better than having a beer and chillin' for the game.

Well that's all for now.

Well a couple of days after the brush witht he law.  I can rest easy and laugh at the whole situation.  It ends up that there was no way that I was going to jail.  I thank God for keeping me safe.  Everyone has been pretty much laughing about it, the only person who took it seriously was my mom and grandmother who treated it like my crew was about to become a gang of hapless thugs.  Nah, all is well.  Also I grabbed THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT on DVD.  This is one of my favorite movies, and it touches on the whole thing of time travel.  I think the moral to the story is that all things happen for a reason and they shouldn't be disturbed.  This weekend, I am taking Kristin on a date hopign that maybe she can have a decent time and not spend it copping attitude about life.  She's such a good girl, and she's finna make me Ziti.  Alright that was random.

First off let me start off by saying that I was always a fan of #####.  Now there's chance that I may never pull the ##### stunt again (at least not being all loud about it).  Yesterday, was a day like most days ##### with the regular crew UNTIL cops showed up.  They ######, and ####, and sent my ass home.  Never was I happier to see the door steps to my house.  I am not going to lie, I was scared shitless, I seriously thougth that I was going to jail, meaning no college, no jobs, after gradaution, and no chance to see my kid born.  I will take this as a lesson learned, and move on.  This situation really woke me up, and I thank the Lord for getting me out of that jam.  I realized that I went to well one too many times.  I like ########, but I LOVE freedom even more.  The good thing was that no one went to jail meaning it won't even be on any records that it went down.  But I think that it will be a while before I decide to ######.  Take some time off from ######.  Oh the webs that I weave.

This has been censored, and the whole story will be coming soon.

Well readers, what can I say?  I had a pretty nice weekend and I really enjoyed the family reunion.  I met family from Ohio, New York, Maryland, California, and many parts of the Pennsylvania area.  It's amazing that we all seem to look alike but have different accents from our areas where we reside.  I also learned some other things such as.......

1. My grandmother really doesn't like her descendants.

2. I have some very successful people in my family.

3. Pie eating contests are fun.

4. Free food, free alcohol, and weed all go hand in hand.

5. My little cousin JT is bad as ever.

Let me tell all of you what he did.  While someone was in a Port-A-John, he decides it would be pretty funny if someone knocked it over.  So he starts to knock it over and it tips just as the person is jumping out to avoid being inside when it fell.

In other news, I want to speak on Mike Tyson getting knocked out on Friday.  It's a shame, but I believe that his career just might be through at this point.  Let's all take a moment to remember that Mike Tyson who used to knock everyone out in 30 seconds, the guy who used to be king of the division.  I really hope that he does get out of debt one day.  Myabe he can write a book or something.  I would surely buy it if he wrote a book on his life, and I think alot of people would be glad to purchase a copy too.

Well after meeting everyone, I really look forward to doing this again sometime, I mean we are all very busy people but there would be nothing better than spending time with people that you don't get to see often.

That is it for today's blog

Well, I have been off the blog for a few days but rest assured I AM NOT DEAD.  I have just sort of had a writer's black lately. I don't really know what I want to say today at all.  Well I guess I can talk about school since I will be going back there in a month.  Back to the noise of living in a fraternity house, back to the joys of the college football season, and back to finishing that whole degree thing.  I liek how college is a change of pace from just sitting at home.  No one can bother you when you are at school and away from all the stress that comes with your mother nagging you all of the time.  The friends that you make at college are great too.  The only thing that gets tiresome is the food. The meal plans and all.  But this should be an exciting semester and I will be finishing the English half of my degree, and my child is going to be born.  This is going to be times of change.  I am very excited about it.  Here at the University of Pittsburgh when you forget about the tuition increase this is a great University.  I also like the fall time as this is also the time that my rap album that I have been working on will be dropping.  Hopefully I make a decent amount from it.  maybe send the CD to some record labels too.

Let's all just wait and see what happens.

This will be the first time that I had ever made an entry on the weekend.  I am at a loss of words.  It's almost as if my mind has nothing to talk about.  Maybe I should have waited until later to write something.............The blank mind, is the crappy mind.  You sit there and you try your best to come up with something.  You seem to only be able to think of 2 things, your girlfriend and hot wings.  You had written about your grilfriend constantly in thisblog, and no one wants to read about the greatness of hot wings.  Then I remembed that a few months ago there was a situation iwth thoughts on gay marriage, so here goes:

GAY MARRIAGE: Homophobia in America?  Yes Folks it is at its height here in the United States.  I myself have no problems with Gay marriage because who a person wants to screw with gay or straight is no one else's business, as long as the couple is happy.  For all of you anti-gay peeps out there, who are you to judge what is right and wrong?  They are human beings just like the rest of us, and of course they are going to have to face judgment when they die, they shouldn't have to face it while they are down here.  Personally I believe that this is just another form of discrimination here in our great country of America that we get to deal with.  It?s sad but this country has built its reputation on being discriminatory to certain groups of people.  Being anti-gay is no better than being prejudice because it?s still a form of hating on someone because they are different.  Of course the anchor behind this homophobia is the president of the United States George W. Bush.  As you all know our country is ran by someone who is obviously an idiot.  I thought that someone who went to college at Yale would be a bit smarter than he is.  I guess I was wrong.  According to Bush "The union of a man and a woman is the most enduring human institution, honored and encouraged in all cultures and by every religious faith".  Great job there, Dubya, as you try to explain why gays marrying is wrong.  Is marriage between a men and women encouraged in all cultures?  Let's start with this culture that we have now.  This popular culture here in American doesn?t even like marriage.  If you look at TV for guys it's all about scoring with as many girls as possible and for girls it's about being with many different guys.  After seeing my mom fail in 2 marriages it kind of gives examples of why people don't want to get married.  And for the people who do want to get married, they are considered losers who are going to come home to the same thing everyday.  We can see how the US discourages marriage just by the statistics that have almost have of the marriages ending in divorce, with people cheating on husbands and wives obviously it's not that enduring of an institution.  Also how sacred is marriage if you can get married in Vegas by an Elvis Impersonator?  I think that this whole thing is being blow totally out of proportion.  It's a freedom of choice.

Well I decided that I am going to do thsi relgious piece today to let everyone understand that there are a lot of people out there that don't understand God's plan.  People are all under the misconception that God likes religions.  The truth of the matter is that God isn't a big fan of relgion, all he wants is that we accept Jesus as our personal savior, and that we always keep God first.  Religion is actually one of the things that is used by the devil to interefere with our relationship with God.  When we argue over scripture, when we argue over whether or not someone is a real Christian, and even when you have people who are down with other relgions.  Money is another thing that keeps us distracted, now I am going to say that I myself ahve been distracted by it because of how important it is.  But at the same time God will always give you what you need in life.  People seem to have a hard time with putting things into God's hands.  The best thing to do is to try to do things God's Way.  We all have problems with this because that's how life and Satan do things.  The good thing about religion is that it helps make some great people.  But we all must remember that Man Can't get into heaven on Good works alone.  I am going to leave links to some tracts that I ahve read, and hopefully some more people will understand that Christ is the only way to go. I hope that people read these, and take them to heart.

http://www.chick.com/reading/tracts/0071/0071_01.asp

http://www.chick.com/reading/tracts/0009/0009_01.asp

http://www.chick.com/reading/tracts/0009/0009_01.asp